So This Is How It Went

..because it's on tv.

And I'm gonna be upset if you don't make an effort to see me before you go.

Even to fucking California.



But I'm not gonna put a lot of faith in it.

No, no no.

Amy Winewhore....I mean Winehouse, you inspire me to do worse things then I ever thought I would.

I started having lesbian sex again, which...pretty much bothers the hell out of me.
But it's ok.



Everything's ok.


It all works out in the end.




We usually just keel over dead, so that's a pretty ok ending I think.

What a wonderful caricature or intimacy.

It's so very sweet, but I can't help thinking it's too sweet.
I have every doubt that it's the first time.

It hasn't been long enough.
You don't know enough.

He could be the worst person in the world.
You could just be the girl in the port.


It's like you're at a party....annnnd you meet this cute guy in the living room, and you kinda blow of the rest of your friends to flirt with him.
So you two are thinking you're hot for each other, and you decide to move your little fling into the other room.

You find out he's an asshole. He built himself up for you.

After you realise that, you come back into the living room, but none of your friends wanna hang out, because they're enjoying the party.

You're got up and left them, for a guy who you don't really know, and you just have hope that they'll still be here when you figure it out.



It's just like that, only on a much bigger scale.

So, I need to start using this again.

I guess I'm back bitches.

I got caught eating ice cream at Safeway.

You do realize, I miss you fantastically.
It’s dangerous, but I do.
Why?
Oh yeah. You held me through the aftershock.

But how do I handle something, that doesn’t exist to you.
That was based on lies to me.
And only has meaning for an hour or two a week.

I lied.
About me.
I wanted to make it…distant.
So you weren’t fucking me.
It was someone else.
Someone who didn’t exist.

But,
I fell for myself.

And fell for you even harder.

But you don’t even know me.
You know who I told you.
You know who I made.

And now.

Fuck.

I’m crying again.

Holy fuck its been a long time.

I'm back on LJ.

Thanks to Marissa.

I like how my last post was in May.

Basically because I suck


I FUCKING MISS ALL OF YOU.


terribly.

I miss Zayna, and Kristin and I. I miss that day I brought Gabe in. Stupid mexicans.
I miss when I got little girl earrings with Trish and Kristin. SHe has a conscious? Buuut, she would buy Robby booze.

I miss everything about Ass and I.
Cram.
Ofarah.
Milk.


I miss that day in Bergen's class, when I made all that food. And I was cool for a day.

I miss Dorota Danielova.

I want my life back.

Hedonism on Rainy Days.

You remember "Oh fuck! We're on the freeway!"
Handjobs to the Residentially Challenged.

What a girl wants?


Bing.
I'm a motherfuckin' P.I,M,P

right?

or was all that a dream.

omfgimback.

it's taken me 9 minutes to do this.

i am sofa king drunk right now.









and look at the time.

Here's to you Mrs. Robinson.

I just wish I wasn't such a shiny disappointment.




-Exit Stage Right-

Within the span of one week.

I will have lost a grandmother, and a great grandmother.

As of 8pm tonight...my g-gma was given 50 or less hours to live.

Oh Scene, I pray you. Give me deafness, so I can be scene-er then those other assholes.

Oh fuck.

My Dr. already told me I'm going deaf.

Woops. Scene kids suck. Even(especially) the ones who say theyre not...btu still are.

You are all fucking hypocrites.

Thats why you gots deleted!

oops!

Problem Solved.

I Will ignore Neil....the same way he ignores me.

And then everything will be shiny again.

And I won't like him.

Our Goddess Be With You.
She Will Watch You.

I Will Pray For You.
And I Will Burn The Sweetest Incense For You.

They Will Get What They Deserve.

Tenfold.

Oh what dim an ember is the Sun, compared to your kiss.

Fuck You. Fuck You Emotion. Fuck You.

BREEANH!

The Sky Is Blue....And You're Playing Me Like A Harp.

I understand emo now.

I currently fuckign hate my mother.

I wouldnt even say goodbye to her.


Im
Fuckign
pissed.